i've fallen.

i've fallen in love with another man. he's short and not very well spoken. he doesn't have much hair, has bad skin and is a bit cross-eyed. he's incontinent. he sleeps a lot. doesn't have a job. but oh...i can't help myself.

i knew i would love him. i've loved him for 10 months already. but to see him here, in my lap. watching him sleep, listening to his tiny snore...i'm a goner. and it's going by so quickly my heart hurts. he's not even 2 weeks old and things are already changing. his eyes are open more. focused more (even the lazy one!). he is starting to pay attention as i'm talking to him during diaper changings. and tonight, for the first time, he kept his eyes wide open while he nursed. soon he will be looking at me while he's eating and then my heart might just explode.

and can someone please explain to me just how they can possibly smell so good all the time? i know if i didn't bathe and pooped my pants all day i wouldn't smell that good.