there's a lot of growing up going on these days.

things are really changing in our lives these days. especially for mia. she's growing up so fast, it seems. it must be really hard for her to handle all of the changes going on in and around her. some days (like yesterday...dear lord, thank you for putting yesterday behind us...) i think we get a glimpse into her teenage years. and i'm scared.

she's still a baby in so many ways but then she turns her head just so and says something completely adult and i realize how big she really is. she's nearly 2 and a half. she wants to be swaddled after her baths and rocked before bed time. but god help you if you try to help her into her seat for dinner or help her get her shoes on. "I CAN DO IT!!" when she's tired because she missed her nap (which she obviously didn't need, oh noooo...) she just cries and cries with the tired. telling me that she just needs to cry a little bit. and i know just how she feels. poor kid. at least she can tell lme how she's feeling these days - i've been waiting for that for a long time. to have a peek inside her crazy little head.

and today? today she's moving into the "big kid class". they're moving her up 2 months before she's scheduled because she's so "mature". just a couple weeks before she becomes a big sister. a couple weeks before she is pulled out of daycare until june. she's leaving behind all of her friends that she's known for the past year to join a class of kids that are much older, bigger and crazier than her.

AND! potty training. full on, no more pull-ups potty training. as of this morning my baby is a full time panty wearing little girl. and it's killing me a little.

as i got her ready for school this morning we were talking about her first day in her new class and she got this look on her face like she might cry. i asked her if she was nervous and she sat down on my lap and told me very matter of factly that "yes, mama, i'm nervous". and then she giggled and put on her big girl care bear panties, made sure her name was written in them and smiled the biggest smile you've ever seen. she was so proud of herself.

josh dropped her off this morning and said that she was a little overwhelmed but didn't cry. but i did.