as you can see s/he has the same lips and cheeks as mia already. and those are some pretty good parts, you know!
and then there's me. the carrier. how am i doing, you ask? i. am. done. i'm anxious to get this show on the road. i'm tired and uncomfortable and none of my clothes have fit for weeks now.
yesterday the ultrasound tech said that she "couldn't see" my placenta. which is good in that it's most likely moved out of the way of my cervix and so i won't have to have a c-section (again, we won't know that until tomorrow) but on the other hand - shouldn't she have seen it somewhere? i mean, we know it's in there, so where is it, exactly? doesn't give me too much confidence in her and i'm thinking that we might have to go back in for another round of ultrasounds. bah.
i got all worked up and upset about the possibility of having a scheduled c-section but after a few weeks and as i grew more and more uncomfortable the idea kind of grew on me. i would know when it was coming. i could take some time off beforehand without worrying that i was going to go really late again. it would be over soon! but now i'm back to square one. and having to reaquaint myself with the thought that this baby could be in here for a while and i can't plan a thing. but it's good. natural is better than an operation. i know that. but still. i'm done.
i do think that the baby will come out sooner rather than later, though. with mia i wasn't uncomforatble at all, really. i mean, i was huge and swollen but i wasn't really all that put out being pregnant. not this time. i feel the baby down low - much lower than i ever did with mia. my braxton hicks have been picking up over the past couple days and come this weekend i'll be "at term" and can safely have the baby. so maybe this one will be just as we thought and be the "anti-mia". in that it will come early and be a completely different kind of newborn. the good and the bad all rolled into one.
and how's mia handling this all, you ask? splendidly. we've set up the nursery complete with the swing, bouncy chair, baby toys, blankets, etc. and mia is in heaven. she has been playing quietly in the baby's room every day now. i'll find her all wrapped up in a blanket, bouncing in the bouncy seat and playing with a rattle. it really is sweet. and yes, it's a little weird and she might have a hard time adjusting at first but really? the baby can't play with most of these things for months anyway and mia has decided that it's her job to teach the baby how to do certain things. namely: how to sit up and how to play with it's toys. she's told me that she will help with diapers and give the baby lots of kisses. she asks us every day "is the baby coming?"
yesterday she could see the baby's face clearly in the ultrasound and it hit her a little more that there was a baby in there. she spent the rest of the day hugging and kissing the belly and watching it move. and last night every time she thought i was uncomfortable or in pain she would pat my shoulder and ask oh so sweetly "oh mama, the baby's moving?" i love that kid.
of course she's not all sunshine and rainbows right now - don't get me wrong. she's fully embracing the twos with all her might and has been standing her ground on things a lot more. she's also been a bit more emotional than we're used to. especially when she's tired. the other night she got to crying about something and couldn't calm down so she put her head on my belly and told me that she would "just cry a little bit, mama, ok?" and so she did. and then she was better. sometimes it just feels better to cry.
so yeah, i think she's gonna be just fine. sure, it might take a while and there will be bouts of jealousy, but that's normal and expected.
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I hesitate to write this, because I really would have considered selling my kid on e-bay this week were it legal, but I just LOVE your kid.
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